I have a new xanga site that I might attempt to write in. It's called
My_Heart_Is_In_OHIO

Ok later dudes.

~Mary~

I havent been into much just hanging around and living each day cause thats the only way i know how to get by. I am in a new band though it's great It's like my Cousion and three other guys and they've been in so many different bands together and sepretly my cuz is known and stuff bc his band use to be kind of big but of course stuff happend and he just so happend to move in right beside me so thats cool and they were looking for a singer perferable a chick singer and they were in luck and their awesome musians I hope I can do good and sing the stuff. But it's a good experience. So I had my first band practice with them all today it was cool. And yeh my new tattooe I got is infected and it hurts it's all bublly and white and it burns and itches but it's ok it's worth it. And yeh lets see what else I don't think I 'm going to Warped Tour now me and Brad had a long talk and we decided not to go which kind of sucks but then it kinda is the best thing considering what would happend with our money wise and stuff if we wnet so I think we made a good decsion.
And yeh my friend had a going away party and to make a long story short I guess you always find out who your true friends are and well I'm glad to say Megan Is still my girl she's been since we were 6 and now we're 18 and we're more best friends now then we ever were. No matter what or how long we didnt talk in high school she's still there and now we've been back together for a while and we're going to stay this way no matter what anyone does. Yeh so anyway we went to our Friends going away party and the plain was to ditch it bc it was at soem fat bitches house and she didnt want any guys there she didnt invite bc she invited ugly ass hick boys, and so we were all goign to go there and shove it in her fat ass face well we showed up late and like i said our two wonderfull friends that had my back basically stabbed me adn megan after they said how they think it would be wroung to leave us out there just bc this bitch is jealous of me well i guess tehy can stand uop to her or do what they want bc they suck and liek i said you find out who your true friends are.  Yeh if only I would have hit this bitch but i dont hit people unless they hit me frist but I hoped she would of made the worse mistake in her life and hit me but she didn't. So yeh we left. And yeh now I'm here waiting for Megan to come over so we can get into whatever and I might possible go to my little brothers football game. And go to more band practice later. Or camp I dont knwo yeh I'm still unemployed but I am looking for a job and most likly at the end of the month will have one thanks to ManPower the tests you have to take for them sucks but afterwards it's great they get you a job a good job. So yeh I'm leaving on all of this because I typed too much and this will have to do for now.

I love you Brad,

Later

~Mary~

I got another tattoo a few days ago. It's awesome it's on my stomach. It's hard to explain what it is. My brother came home today before he leaves for College, and before Micheal leaves. I'm still trying to find a job but I'm not looking that hard yet I will after the concert. And I've been camping and all that fun stuff every weekend or whenever with Megan Beau Brad and Crystal and whoever else. It's fun. We get into some crazy stuff.

Well I'm done writting on here I don't know when I will be on here again.

I love you Brad.

Later
~Mary~

I don't update much on here because it gets boring and shit like that. But latly shit has been happening so i decided why the fuck not write a little more on here its not like you have anything else to do yet besides bitch and complain. So i leave you all with this shit.

Today me and megan are dying our hair uhmmm surprise isn't it me and megan dying our hair. We have a cool idea for my hair were going to try it will be cool if it works. The later we're most likly going to teh band thing again. And yeh i'll go from there later dudes.

~Mary~

The image of you
and her still burns
in my mind.
I still feel the
pressure of the tears
upon my eyes.
Why did it have to be
like this
This for me is an every day obsession,
I fucking hate myself.. That's my confession.
How could anyone love this empty bag of bones?
I'll close me up in my thoughts and leave this behind,
destiny and fate will guide me to claim what is mine.
Some would say these feelings are normal for teens,
There was once so many things I admired,
now I am restless and my brain is tired.
I hid my pain behind a wall,
I washed away the tears with a sense of dignity,
Now I feel emotionally drained,
I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that
So try to stomp on me,
try to douse my inner flame,
try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me
You won't succeed

isn't it nice.